Where are they?
Apparently I'm made up of them.
What's In A Birth [Certificate]?
BIRTH CERTIFICATE:
It helps for any Nation to plan its strategies regarding National policies/plans which depends on the Population Census - Age Group Census - Gender Census etc.
Admission to any Educational Institution.
To get Motor Vehicle Driving License.
For Insurance Policy.
For any Recruitment and Appointments.
For Registration of Marriage.
To include a family member in a Ration
To exercise Franchise(voting in Election)
To decide the Age and Date of Retirement
To decide whether a person is Minor/Major according to Law.
To Avail the facilities/benefits extended by the Government based on Age-for eg.Concessional Traveling Passes/Tickets for Senior Citizens etc.
To take part in any Sports Event - Age Factor-Production of Date of Birth Certificate is mandatory.
To Apply for Passport.
Not So Good Morning
I NEED A FIREWIRE.
I recorded myself sleeping last night and then brushing my morning routine, and I want upload it. It doesn't need much editing but i wanted to this time lapse effect..but alas.. no firewire..
I recorded myself sleeping last night and then brushing my morning routine, and I want upload it. It doesn't need much editing but i wanted to this time lapse effect..but alas.. no firewire..
Post Phone Call Problems
Friday 27th September 2008
Left on my Facebook Profile wall,
Left on my Facebook Profile wall,
MG* wrote at 2:50am
Nadia, could you call me, or text me or anything? Just e-mail me back at least. It's ridiculous that i have to start leaving messages on facebook. Please.
When I'm happy, I sometimes feel as if I'm not real. It's when I'm sad that I get thrust back into reality.
*Name is withheld for his sake and mine.
When I'm happy, I sometimes feel as if I'm not real. It's when I'm sad that I get thrust back into reality.
*Name is withheld for his sake and mine.
Anesthetic Illusion
Today was an awkward day. Awkward. That's possibly the best word for how I felt, it started off strangely. I have a routine in the morning, I'll get up wash my face twice then, with my eyes still closed i'd reach for my face towel which is placed on the side and dry my face before i can open my eyes. I brush my teeth, upwards and sideways the same amount of times (usually 5 or 7, always odd numbers) then rinse my mouth 3 times.
But this morning, I wasn't quite myself. i brushed my teeth first without realizing how many strokes, i then continued to wash my face twice, and like usual my eyes were closed however this time when i reached for my towel it wasn't there. But I had put it there the night before, i was sure. It just didn't feel right.
I feel like daily routines entangle human life. It's what keeps me happy, it keeps me content. It's like my own anesthetic illusion to the realities of existence.
But this morning, I wasn't quite myself. i brushed my teeth first without realizing how many strokes, i then continued to wash my face twice, and like usual my eyes were closed however this time when i reached for my towel it wasn't there. But I had put it there the night before, i was sure. It just didn't feel right.
I feel like daily routines entangle human life. It's what keeps me happy, it keeps me content. It's like my own anesthetic illusion to the realities of existence.
Pinch Me, I Must Be Dreaming
I feel like my blog is becoming very impersonal..
I need to start thinking of it as diary.. and I will. I promise.
Pinch Test
Experiment Two
When I'm not sure if i'm dreaming or not, i'd pinch myself. If I wasn't dreaming, it'd hurt.
I pinched myself every five minutes for an hour. If it hurts, I'm real.
Friday 26th September 2008
10:00 pm - Real
10:05 pm - Real
10:10 pm - Real
10:15 pm - Real
10:20 pm - Real
10:25 pm - Real
10:30 pm - Real
10:35 pm - Real
10:40 pm - Real
10:45 pm - Real
10:50 pm - Real
10:55 pm - Real
11:00 pm - Real
In conclusion, between 10:00 pm and 11:oo pm on Friday 26th September 2008 I existed.
I need to start thinking of it as diary.. and I will. I promise.
Pinch Test
Experiment Two
When I'm not sure if i'm dreaming or not, i'd pinch myself. If I wasn't dreaming, it'd hurt.
I pinched myself every five minutes for an hour. If it hurts, I'm real.
Friday 26th September 2008
10:00 pm - Real
10:05 pm - Real
10:10 pm - Real
10:15 pm - Real
10:20 pm - Real
10:25 pm - Real
10:30 pm - Real
10:35 pm - Real
10:40 pm - Real
10:45 pm - Real
10:50 pm - Real
10:55 pm - Real
11:00 pm - Real
In conclusion, between 10:00 pm and 11:oo pm on Friday 26th September 2008 I existed.
Control Freak
'The heart is a muscular organ in all vertebrates responsible for pumping blood though the blood vessels by repeated, rhythmic contractions."
Basically the heart is an insanely important organ in my body, it pumps oxygenated blood to feed my body's biological functions. So without one, I wouldn't exist.
Experiment One
Do I (physically) have a heart? Am I able to control my heart rate?
Well I am alive. I'm moving, breathing, eating and functioning as a human so I'm pretty sure I have a heart. Also if i look on my right wrist (only on my right) I can actually see my pulse. So I know that blood is being pumped through my body and therefore I do actually have a heart.
But can I control it?
Well first things first. I wanted to see how many times my heart beats per minutes normally. I remembered my science days at school so I decided to test it 3 times. I'm a little scientist, i am.
1) 83 BMP
2) 87 BMP
3) 81 BMP
So my average would be 83.6666666666 so lets just say 84
My next test was to see if i can slow it down. I read that putting a person's face in contact with cold water triggers bradycardia - which slows down the heart rate. After that I held my breathe for a minute (well...)
1) 78 BMP
2) 72 BMP
3) 76 BMP
So my average would be 75.3333333333 so lets just say 75
My last test was to see if I could speed it up. Not having gone to the gym in a couple of days/months I didn't think it'd be too difficult. I ran around for a minute each time, then checked my pulse.
1) 138 BMP
2) 140 BMP
3) 143 BMP
So my average would be 140.333333 so lets just say 140
In conclusion, I do have a heart (thankfully) and I can control it.
Does this prove I exist?
Basically the heart is an insanely important organ in my body, it pumps oxygenated blood to feed my body's biological functions. So without one, I wouldn't exist.
Experiment One
Do I (physically) have a heart? Am I able to control my heart rate?
Well I am alive. I'm moving, breathing, eating and functioning as a human so I'm pretty sure I have a heart. Also if i look on my right wrist (only on my right) I can actually see my pulse. So I know that blood is being pumped through my body and therefore I do actually have a heart.
But can I control it?
Well first things first. I wanted to see how many times my heart beats per minutes normally. I remembered my science days at school so I decided to test it 3 times. I'm a little scientist, i am.
1) 83 BMP
2) 87 BMP
3) 81 BMP
So my average would be 83.6666666666 so lets just say 84
My next test was to see if i can slow it down. I read that putting a person's face in contact with cold water triggers bradycardia - which slows down the heart rate. After that I held my breathe for a minute (well...)
1) 78 BMP
2) 72 BMP
3) 76 BMP
So my average would be 75.3333333333 so lets just say 75
My last test was to see if I could speed it up. Not having gone to the gym in a couple of days/months I didn't think it'd be too difficult. I ran around for a minute each time, then checked my pulse.
1) 138 BMP
2) 140 BMP
3) 143 BMP
So my average would be 140.333333 so lets just say 140
In conclusion, I do have a heart (thankfully) and I can control it.
Does this prove I exist?
What Am I Looking For?
Trying to find evidence of my existence is a lot harder than it seems. What am I looking for? After having an hour long heart attack, I thought "anything". Anything that can physically confirm I was there. After harassing my mother for an hour asking her to get out my birth certificate I managed to convince her. The funny thing is I don't have it yet, my mother said she'd give it to me tomorrow morning and for now I have to believe that my birth certificate is there, that it actually exists but it's just hidden somewhere in my parents room. On any other occasion I'd be fine with the wait, but this time.. I'm DYING with anticipation.
For now I'll just have to give her the benefit of the doubt. I searched through some old family albums. It was a task.. I have three older brothers and one older sister so imagine the amount of family albums we have. Thankfully we're quite organized.. strangely organized (Each person had their own photo album) so I eventually found mine. Which actually wasn't that hard, because I haven't really changed much, so I'm sure it's me. I found a couple with a date.. which made me happy. I feel like photography is a great source of evidence. That's what I like about photography, it gives you the opportunity to freeze a moment of time that you'll probably never see again. You've captured that second and that everything in that second existed.
I don't feel like this project will be solely a photographic project. I need to collect all sorts of data.. and that's the initial phase of this project. Getting all the information. A series of experiments. I need to conduct experiments to test my physical and spiritual existence.
For now I'll just have to give her the benefit of the doubt. I searched through some old family albums. It was a task.. I have three older brothers and one older sister so imagine the amount of family albums we have. Thankfully we're quite organized.. strangely organized (Each person had their own photo album) so I eventually found mine. Which actually wasn't that hard, because I haven't really changed much, so I'm sure it's me. I found a couple with a date.. which made me happy. I feel like photography is a great source of evidence. That's what I like about photography, it gives you the opportunity to freeze a moment of time that you'll probably never see again. You've captured that second and that everything in that second existed.
I don't feel like this project will be solely a photographic project. I need to collect all sorts of data.. and that's the initial phase of this project. Getting all the information. A series of experiments. I need to conduct experiments to test my physical and spiritual existence.
A Week Full of Tears
Part of a message sent to me on September 22nd at 9:47 pm after an intense phone call on September 21st at around 4:30 am
"Everything was a waste of time, you were a waste of time. It's you, you're the one that fucks me up, it's never been the other way around so don't act like it is. "
Wish i'd collected them.
"Everything was a waste of time, you were a waste of time. It's you, you're the one that fucks me up, it's never been the other way around so don't act like it is. "
Wish i'd collected them.
Bloggers exist
I've decided to confirm my existence. Confirm being the key word in that sentence.
Who am I?
I am Nadia Hamidi, daughter of Ahmed Omar Hamidi and Muna El-Naffati.
I am from Libya.
I was born in London, England on the 25th of November 1987 at Portland Hospital.
I moved to Dubai in 2004.
I hate it.
I study photography.
Existence is a topic that philosophers and scientists alike have debated over for decades and they will continue. I am not here to prove or disprove any theories. Who am I to do that? I have neither studied philosophy or science, but I'm here, aren't I? I don't believe I don't exist, but I don't believe I do. I guess what I'm trying to say is that I believe I exist more than I believe I don't.
The word "exist" or "existence" is such a complicated one, as you can see from my earlier post it's hard to define.. dare I say impossible. I don't dare too actually, let's just stick with hard to define. Yet is used so easily, "existence" or "exist" has become a common word but do people really know what it means, the implications it brings? Has anyone really thought about it before they've used it. People exist, things exist? But do they really? What does that mean?
Like I said before, I'm not here to prove or disprove theories, or even make any of my own. I just want to confirm my own existence.
How? Evidence. Evidence of my own existence.
What is evidence? "Your basis for belief or disbelief; knowledge on which to base belief"
I need facts. I need documents. I need papers.
I've decided to keep a "diary" and welcome... you're reading my diary. I could have kept a little book with me and jotted down all my notes only for me too read, but I've decided to make it public. And what more public place than the internet, for all of you to see. This is my evidence.. you reading this is my evidence. It scares me slightly, I'm generally a private person, so the idea of sharing all my personal things online terrifies me, but I feel like I need this to feel.. real.
So the journey begins.. and I'm not sure if it'll end.
Who am I?
I am Nadia Hamidi, daughter of Ahmed Omar Hamidi and Muna El-Naffati.
I am from Libya.
I was born in London, England on the 25th of November 1987 at Portland Hospital.
I moved to Dubai in 2004.
I hate it.
I study photography.
Existence is a topic that philosophers and scientists alike have debated over for decades and they will continue. I am not here to prove or disprove any theories. Who am I to do that? I have neither studied philosophy or science, but I'm here, aren't I? I don't believe I don't exist, but I don't believe I do. I guess what I'm trying to say is that I believe I exist more than I believe I don't.
The word "exist" or "existence" is such a complicated one, as you can see from my earlier post it's hard to define.. dare I say impossible. I don't dare too actually, let's just stick with hard to define. Yet is used so easily, "existence" or "exist" has become a common word but do people really know what it means, the implications it brings? Has anyone really thought about it before they've used it. People exist, things exist? But do they really? What does that mean?
Like I said before, I'm not here to prove or disprove theories, or even make any of my own. I just want to confirm my own existence.
How? Evidence. Evidence of my own existence.
What is evidence? "Your basis for belief or disbelief; knowledge on which to base belief"
I need facts. I need documents. I need papers.
I've decided to keep a "diary" and welcome... you're reading my diary. I could have kept a little book with me and jotted down all my notes only for me too read, but I've decided to make it public. And what more public place than the internet, for all of you to see. This is my evidence.. you reading this is my evidence. It scares me slightly, I'm generally a private person, so the idea of sharing all my personal things online terrifies me, but I feel like I need this to feel.. real.
So the journey begins.. and I'm not sure if it'll end.
Define me
Definitions:
Existence
- Being: the state or fact of existing; "a point of view gradually coming into being"; "laws in existence for centuries"
- Existence is what is asserted by the verb 'exist' (derived from the Latin word 'existere', meaning to appear or emerge or stand out).
- The state of being, existing, or occurring; empirical reality
- he substance of the physical universe
Exist
- to be; have existence; have being or reality
- support oneself; "he could barely exist on such a low wage"
- to be; have existence; have being or reality
Synonyms:
Existence
aborning, contemporary, corporeal, existential, existing, extant, nascent, noumenal, objective, ontic, substantive
Exist
are, breathe, continue, endure, last, lie, live, maintain, remain, survive
Doesn't the fact that most definitions of exist or existence both use the term existing or existence irritate you?
Existence
- Being: the state or fact of existing; "a point of view gradually coming into being"; "laws in existence for centuries"
- Existence is what is asserted by the verb 'exist' (derived from the Latin word 'existere', meaning to appear or emerge or stand out).
- The state of being, existing, or occurring; empirical reality
- he substance of the physical universe
Exist
- to be; have existence; have being or reality
- support oneself; "he could barely exist on such a low wage"
- to be; have existence; have being or reality
Synonyms:
Existence
aborning, contemporary, corporeal, existential, existing, extant, nascent, noumenal, objective, ontic, substantive
Exist
are, breathe, continue, endure, last, lie, live, maintain, remain, survive
Doesn't the fact that most definitions of exist or existence both use the term existing or existence irritate you?
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